Yesterday was a tough day. Lilly cried the entire day. I cried only half of the day. It was my first official meltdown day. After I snapped at my husband and took a nap, I came out of the whole thing ok. I think Ryan and Lilly did too. It took me a month to have one of these days, by the way. I think that's a pretty good record. Sleep deprivation will do crazy things to a person.Today was a much better day. We spent three hours at Barnes and Noble, and after feeding Lilly twice and making notes on the books I need to pick up from the library (no more buying books--we are poor homeowners now), I started to get comfortable in our local bookstore and wondered if it would be weird if we showed up for these marathon afternoons a couple times a week. Would the employees start to get suspicious? They do have comfy couches on which to breastfeed, a clean bathroom, and snacks! It's just like being at home.
While I was feeding Lilly, I looked around (I do a lot of looking around while I feed her--usually at nothing in particular) and noticed all kinds of interesting people. First of all, I saw a man reading a book about knives. I didn't know there were entire books dedicated to knives.
Now, I know.
I also overheard a couple of teenage girls giggling over the Kama Sutra book they had picked up and were now flipping through. They thought it was the funniest thing they had ever seen. Oh, if they only knew.
I can't wait to see what social idiosyncrasies we see during our next trip.
As I perused the tables at the bookstore, I realized how many good books I need to read. I'm learning how to master reading while breastfeeding--I'm practicing with Brook Shields' book on postpartum depression. It's an ok read. I'm not sure why I'm reading it. I guess I was curious to read what she went through and now that I'm a mother, I was wondering if I could relate to anything she experienced.
Ryan is off to Orange County for work tonight, so Lilly and I are spending the night alone. I think we'll be fine. Actually, it's sometimes easier to wake up for those middle of the night feedings when their isn't anyone sleeping peacefully next to me. But, we'll miss Ryan and will be anxious for his return.
4 comments:
Is Lilly actually one month old already? Sheesh, that went by fast. She looks so much bigger in that pic and it's only been a week since I haven't seen her!
Sorry about your bad day. One thing I will never understand is babies. It's so frustrating when they cry because you don't know what's wrong! And why don't they just sleep instead? Anyway, glad you came out of it okay. Ryan isn't the first husband to get snapped at that's for sure.
I also can't believe it's been a month!
I love people watching, even better at a bookstore.
That picture. It's gorgeous.
It's been a few years since I've been in baby mode; but one thing Brandon and I would do if they were acting inconsolable(especially Brandon because he doesn't have the boobs)was going outside. It's amazing what a change of scenery will do. I'm sure you already figured this out. I can't wait to see you all again. Much love
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