It's been an unusually emotional few weeks around here. I've stopped breastfeeding, I got an IUD, I've been suffering from insomnia, and we are on a total budget (aka: all extra cash goes to bills). It's all a little bit depressing, and I'm assuming...what has got me down lately.
And maybe the crappy weather too. We had a few nice days last weekend (and we were at the park all weekend as a result), but now its back to rain. And gray--so much grayness.
Lilly was up with my parents for the weekend and the second I dropped her off at our halfway mark, I felt this huge wave of calmness sweep over me. Isn't that so sad? I adore my daughter, but only having to keep track of one child, is so, so, SO easy. Perhaps it's the stage she's in, but she's tough right now. Really tough.
I've been doing some really dumb things lately. Last week, the kids and I met Ryan at a park in Midtown so I could run to a quick appointment. Ryan was getting Lilly out of the car and asked where her shoes were. "Well...I guess her shoes are at home."
Today, I did a bunch of random things. I lost my cell phone for a few hours only to hear it ringing in the junk drawer when I called it. Then, Caleb and I went downtown to take Ryan some running clothes and shoes. He was going to take Caleb while I went to have my bangs trimmed. I switched cars with him and drove home. When I got home, there was a message that I had forgotten Ryan's running shoes. And, as I listened to the message, I realized that I had forgotten my hair appointment--the reason I had left Caleb with Ryan in the first place.
I'm losing it.
Ryan suggested I start entering ALL things into my iCal. As in things like remembering to put my kids in the car, brushing my teeth, closing the garage door, etc.
I think he might be on to something.
4 comments:
Sounds like you a need a girls weekend! I am sure that will help with your temporary memory loss!
I despise grey, dark weather. And we've had a lot of that lately too (as one would expect in London).
Oh my gosh...your forgetting the running shoes and the hair appointment.
I forget all the time why I got upstairs. Or downstairs. Why does this happen?!
We can't wait to see you. Really Jen. Are you guys training for the half marathon?
Well, at least Ryan still has a job, and you have extra money to put towards the bills eh? Life could always be worse...you could be in my shoes...anyway, enough about me. I had to laugh about the shoes and the hair appt. Totally not funny at the time but slightly amusing in restrospect, right? Hope you feel less down soon.
Farrah with the perspective! Thank you, Farrah. Could be a lot worse for us all. I was doing some work with these disabled folks who live off $300/month and the state is eliminating their social safety net.
Arnold's the worst governor.
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