I'm trying to keep it real by posting this picture of myself...It's one of those days...
I'm 25 weeks pregnant this week. And the pounds are starting to come. En masse.
I'm trying to maintain some sort of perspective...something about how it's only a short time in my life and it's temporary and I'll have all the time in the world to get back in to shape after I'm done having babies.
Yeah, yeah.
In the meantime, I'm consumed with how different my body is after having had just one baby. What can I expect after the next one? I'm not 22 anymore and things are starting to sink...and not come up for air, if you know what I mean. I'm bummed that I didn't get back in to my cute jeans after I had Lilly. Why didn't I try harder? Will I ever get to wear them again? Am I destined to years of shopping in POV at Nordstrom instead of my lovely friend, TBD? Please, no.
I'm having days lately where I don't recognize myself in the mirror. Who is this person? This chubby, puffy person? Where are my cheek bones? And why do I have three chins? It's a little disheartening. Especially since I still have three more months of pregnancy--the worst three--the three that can really do you in.
I'm not fishing for complements, so please don't comment about how great I am. It won't help. I just thought I'd write it down--so I can remember how crummy I feel and perhaps be inspired to not eat my way through these last weeks of cooking this baby.
I did get some new lip glosses at the MAC counter last week...that made me feel better. I love having new lip stuff in my bag.
Now if I can just find a way to keep my underwear (and lounge pants) from rolling down my legs while I walk...
7 comments:
O Jen I am not even pregnant but am so discouraged by my body lately! Just know you are not alone.
You're pretty! I know you said I couldn't say anything, but it's a pretty picture of you! Your hair is cute, too. I need a cute haircut.
Feeling puffy isn't fun. I know because I'm puffy right now too, without the excuse of producing a child in my stomach.
Your post encapsulates my last 3 months in a nutshell. Ugh. It is hard to see changes in your body that you don't want and learn to accept it. Even love it. I'm definitely not there yet!
I am having the exact same kind of day/week you are! Nothing fits, I feel like I've gained 10 pounds this week (I very well may have) and I don't even look pregnant... just fat. AWESOME! Bob is out of town and Charlotte is a non-stop chatterbox and I'm lonesome... it is so sad.
I think we'll snap out of it.
And you'll totally be wearing cute jeans again... you will!
ha, ha, I'm laughing out loud at POV vs. TBD. I can so relate right now. Last time I hoped nursing would do the trick and just whisk all the pounds away. Now I know that's not going to work, so I'm hoping for the old "you're so busy chasing two children" magical weight loss. Lol.
Btw, I guess you passed YOUR GD test????
I'm with Kathryn - I thought that was a pretty picture of you. And I like when people put self portraits on their blog.
As the 6th commenter, I do understand. You know those doors on buildings that are like a mirror when you walk up to them? I was walking past one and looked over and didn't recognize myself. It's weird.
We'll all get back to ourselves in one form or another. We hope, right?
LOL! You are truly an amazingly entertaining writer! I feel the same way as you and I'm not even close to being pregnant! I need a man first... argh!
It was a great post! :) HUGS!!
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