Well, I've reached that point in my pregnancy where it's pretty much consuming my life. I eat, breathe, and sleep the "when is this baby coming" game. EVERYTHING I do, say, and think has to do with this baby.
And that is fine.
But, it's also making me a little bit crazy.
I'm starting to have emotional peaks and valleys--I'm not sure how much longer I can go on like this. I realize I've said this about a hundred times over the last month or so, but today, I'm serious. I've done a horrible job of trying not to complain these last few weeks, but...come on! I'm starting to lose it. I've broken down into tears a few times over the last few days and I'm going crazy with all the waiting. So much waiting. And my sleep patterns--let's not even go there. I've gained a total of 41 pounds so far and I'm feeling every ounce of it. It is a MAJOR task to put on shoes, shower, or go to the bathroom (peeing requires me to sit down and then get up again--something that is becoming increasing difficult). We did raise our bed a few weeks ago and this has really helped me--I can simply roll out of bed.
I'm talking like no one has ever had to endure this before me. I know, I'm a wimp.
I'd like to think I'm capable of thinking about, and even talking about something else. But, I'm not sure I am. I'm not really reading right now, although I have a few books I'm halfway through...The Emperor's Children and Alternadad. I just can't seem to focus on reading these days if it doesn't have to do with how I'm feeling physically or emotionally. We also saw Zodiac last weekend--it was ok. I didn't love it. I did think Robert Downey Jr. did a fantastic job in it however.
My stress test went fine. The nurse who watched over me today has been a Labor & Delivery nurse for 25 years--she was giving me all kinds of advice and made me feel perfectly at ease. She told me I'm having contractions exactly 8 minutes apart and they are lasting for about 40 seconds. At this point, nothing is too painful, just annoying.
My blood pressure was still high, but the baby's stats looked "beautiful," she said.
I go back to both my OB on Tuesday and back to the hospital for more monitoring. I guess I just hang out and wait to see if anything happens in the meantime.
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Oh, Jen, I feel for you! Let's see, what can you do to get those contractions coming closer together...
Walk and Sex. Two very uncomfortable things at this point, but they will most likely do the trick.
Or you could drink castor oil. It was the worst thing I've ever done in my whole life (it took over an hour of mind games to gulp it down) but... after 2 weeks overdue, I would do anything! Active labor started within hours. It's worth a try if you are "desperate!" (It's safe and will do the trick if "your body is ready.") Just an idea.
You sound RIPE for the pickin! Wow contractions and dilated. You're a champ. I bet that baby just flys out of you. Get your catchers mitt ready Ryan.
nadia, you're crazy.
i'm not even exploring down there.
i'm there for jen.
ice chips.
lotions.
massage.
maybe a nice stick to put between her teeth.
i've never felt more helpless...and for that matter...useless.
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